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Monday, May 8th, 2006
10:57 pm
Gods so amazing.
how can you have compassion without his hand in it?
how can you move a mountain without his strength?
how do you find courage from beyond his arms?
there is hunger
of all different kinds.
were starting something here.
its going to be big.
Gods all around in it.
lets go
"many have travled this road before
i see their tracks in the dirt
maybe i dont agree with where they are leading
but who am i? just a youth
why has that become the excuse?"

i love God a lot... and i like talking about him. it makes me giddy.

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Thursday, April 27th, 2006
10:44 pm
I just really appreciate God a lot. and i enjoy him a lot. and one day i wish i could mean that as much as i should.
Gods so perfect especially on "crappy" days.
today wasnt even crappy, im just saying.
hmm... guitar? chosen? hmmm... God?
we shall see.
happy birthday Rachel... the coolest 2nd grader of all time. and seriously my friend. ...seriously.

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Wednesday, April 12th, 2006
8:28 am

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Tuesday, April 4th, 2006
9:02 pm
not having a car is making me realize.... im a bad person. and its no wonder my parents dont like me so much.


being 18 blows, its a lie of freedom. nothing has changed since i was 16. ...literally.


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Monday, April 3rd, 2006
1:06 am
sometimes people arent very good.

but God always is. and that, ma'am. makes me feel happiness.
i dont want to sleep.

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Friday, March 31st, 2006
5:53 pm
and we toast to the ending
of the beauty we once knew
and i cant look back
the ending of a rainbow
is nothing but air
and i cant speak
but that list of happy things
included you

i know the things that no one ever told me
and its okay for feeling that way
and my feelings
seem to be so secret on the surface
but im telling each one of you
things will be good again
when you blend the good from bad
life turns a shade of okay

my hearts beating hard
i kind of wanted you a lot
but its the farewell speech
time fills the beauty of your face
and i hope to see you

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Saturday, March 18th, 2006
11:28 pm - Just incase you were wondering :::knock on wood:::
... work was so good... its good so far at least. everyone is so much nicer than anyone at windwood. kelsey and i are the youngest... so it makes the annoying level almost invisible. and its so stress free, no one yells and if you dont know how to do something no one really gets offended, they just help you. so much different than what im used to...
and kelsey got her car fixed by chris. her and drews friend, i wish he were my friend too, but i dont think its gonna happen.
i spent a lot of money today.
i bought stickers that say eggcelent today
i have to teach sunday school tomorrow.
i hope brooke comes, badly.
i have to go to an inservice thingy for united art and education tomorrow.
i have to do the birthday cake tomorrow
emily and i have to hang out tomorrow
kelsey chris and i are getting lunch tomorrow.
now that my mom likes me or someting i feel bad sometimes for not being home. i like my mom, shes pretty good.
i miss amanda and she is in the other room
i miss laura and shes down the street
i miss lisa because she texted me today wanting to hang out but i had to kinda say no.
and felt bad.
im going to sleep now girlies.

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Tuesday, March 14th, 2006
9:53 pm - aw. good times...
i was being bored and stuff....


Monday, September 19, 2005

beef chip...
so i guess if you want that to be your new name laura and i are accepting aplications ....starting... the second after i hit the submit button for this x to the anga entry.
you must be really really cool.
you have to be our friend... and cool.
you have to be okay with us being compleatly obnoxious with over use of your new name...
you cant allready have a name from us.

hurry. time is running out.

<3 "from the moment our eyes locked i knew you were the soul reason im alive"

im a little embarassed...but only a little.


i miss the feeling chipotle brings. not even the food. i want to hang out with laura and andrew and be angsty there...

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Thursday, March 9th, 2006
7:00 pm - WELL....
i really just have nothing to say. my days are good. im content. there are pieces of my day where i feel a lot older. i guess its just b/c without swimming i just decide how i want my day to go and i like it. im getting a job, but i dont know how ill get to the job. running is good. it makes me feel good. weird, aye?
i guess the whole reason why i started this update was to show you this completely amazing picture. of a compleatly awesome band. woop!
im in love with the duke (the rightest one.)

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Thursday, March 2nd, 2006
11:15 pm - I think this is why we are friends....
Elstalkerdelmaiz: psh. you RBGs are all the same. talkin on your celly about the latest guy you banged.
Elstalkerdelmaiz: which brings me to my next point.
Elstalkerdelmaiz: ...shut up.
Elstalkerdelmaiz signed off at 11:09:23 PM.

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Wednesday, March 1st, 2006
11:16 pm
whenever i do those stupid fill out thingys on xanga people get offended a little. how annoying. seriously. how anoying can you get?
jerk alert alert alert!

emily- i told you kinda but i should have reminded you. this saturday is freezepop. make plans. but we arehaning out sunday. AND TOMORROW. woot.

my moms actually letting me go to the freezepop concert. wooo whos stoked? meh! yeah!! actually im most excited to wear my plastic outfit and dance. and guess what. this place, is a christian place. who woulda thunk. for real i was shocked.
im annoying, i need to shower and go to bed and wake up early and go to school and spend lotsa time there and then hang out with the emho. and maybe burrito minus the burrito with lisa and laura and andrew, b/c lisa was talking about something like that.

wow. im not sure why i just typed all that down, besides the fact im in a good moood-uh. goodmooda

i hope im not dissapointed with this God place. i think i might be. oh well. atleast God doesnt suck. <FORREAL!

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Tuesday, February 7th, 2006
11:01 pm
today i got cool plastic-y things to wear to f-r-e^2-z-e-p-o-p

laura, can i borrow that green skirt, you know the one you let leah borrow? yeah did you ever get that back? can i borrow it??? pleeeease? HEART!HEART?

swimming should be over by now....

Ps: im full, and really thirsty... sooo it sucks b/c i cant drink any water without exploding but i need to or else my tongue will crumble into little pieces out of my mouth....awkward, i know soshuttup!!!


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Thursday, February 2nd, 2006
11:20 pm
God gave me a pretty freaking good day...and i didnt even diserve a single inch of it. not that i ever diserve anything im givin... i just, you know. succkbigtime recently...
i know its all for something bigger i just dont feel like being in the dark anymore, you know. im selfish and i wish it would stop. im apathetic and i wish the feelings would come. i wish the desire was more than i could bare.. i want to play again, and sing again, and dance around you again. i want freedom to come. no matter what it takes or what i have to get rid of, i want all that.
i want to be captured.

on another note, im dressing up for school tomorrow it shall be rather eggciting if you know what i mean...
(its the dress i got from goodwill (emily) that fit real awkwardly... i made it into a skirt...im going to be the biggest hottie on the face of lakota west(s)...history of hotties..)


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Wednesday, February 1st, 2006
10:02 pm
drifting makes me sad.
ive been doing a lot of it. in a lot of different places...
and im not really sure how ..or why.
but i want it to stop... now.

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Sunday, January 29th, 2006
7:01 pm
today was weird.

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Tuesday, January 24th, 2006
9:57 pm

-no shower b/c im a lazy bum that is bad at waking up and getting out of bed
-early to school b/c mom is paranoid im going to be late and yells a lot.
-sits in hallway, is meaningless
-writes notes
-"why are there no announcements"
-goes home
-gets 4 pints of icecream for 5 dollars
-no laura and try hard, hard practice
-kelsey and lilly
-learn 11 japanese words/phrases
-suck big time and get yelled at
-eat pizza
-talk to hoe

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Thursday, January 19th, 2006
10:06 pm
emily--   well... God is..


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Friday, January 13th, 2006
12:41 pm
exams are over ....FOREVERRRRRRR!!!

untill college. shuttup! whatever.

i dont think im going to nap today b/c then ill probbably end up not going to practice, and i should probbably stop that. hah...
i think i did well on my exams ::knock on wood:: ::knocks on glass table top::
not that it matters anyways. TOOLS!

today i ordered a kids meal...and im really full...?

meet henry.
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Monday, January 9th, 2006
9:34 pm
new places
new revelation
new perspection
arial view
...i declare over you
God has given you the air.
GOD has given you the air...

so fly...

its time to spread out your wings
its time to shake off the things
that hold you.

exams start tomorrow and i couldnt feel better.
i think God and emily and i are all going to be BFF again. ...i hope.

do you see what i see?
do you hear what i hear?
do you know what i know?
do you want what i want?

I. want. you.

i had a dream that nick was in love with me...that was kind of...eh. strange...to say the least. b/c it was so real.
yeah...dont judge me.

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Saturday, January 7th, 2006
8:49 pm
You scored as Sociology. You should be a Sociology major!






























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